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by Olin

Hello my kindred all around the globe. Who am I? And why am I calling you my kindred even though we’ve never met? Or even if we just met and I’ve sent you here, what gives me the right to assume you are apart of my kindred? How are we possibly similar and kin in any way shape or form without me knowing anything about you?

Because you found me. Because you’re you. And I am me. We are human. (—& so much more). And at our root, we know the value of what it means to love. What it means to survive because of love. How far love itself will go to make sure you and others are okay. You see it through others—even those you may dislike, you can see how the love they may shy away from wins over their darknesses, and heals and nurtures miraculously.

You can see it in yourself and others even when you don’t want to—especially when you don’t. It brings you back to center, back to your inner sanctuary that reminds you that peace and serenity are an option.

Even if you think you hate love, I assure you, you don’t. You may feel wronged by it at times, have been in situations where the word repulses you and nothing can be said to change your mind because of those around you who claim to love you have abused your own love and trustworthiness.

But ultimately, we all remember the beauty that love can bring into our lives. The value of a happy home—not just physically but emotionally. Especially emotionally.

Overtime, I feel we crave more and more for that stability of having a base, an escape and safe haven from all the wicked darkness, overzealous light and just chaos that life can bring. Your family may do that for you just fine, but sometimes.. even that’s not dependable due to the box that our loved ones tend to place on us so that they can have an ideal version of you to love.

I want to make you feel safe. To tame your darkness. Control all darkness. To eat it, rather than fear it. (Not your darkness specifically fear not, I know that sounds weird LOL—I mean my own and whenever it proves to do too much and/or extend in my direction uninvited and too chaotically. That is where the light within beautifully steps in. A perfect balance, ever-changing and infinite.)

To create a place in this world, even if it’s only on the internet, for all kindred around the globe to be able to depend on this website being a Sanctuary for your soul, mind, and body. A place where you can allow your imagination to wander, and go on adventures together as we navigate realities both imagined and yet to be. To let your darkness shine with its inner light, revealing its obsidian glittery beauty through your interests, desires, and will to dance.

I have an appreciate for darkness, as it is just like a wounded child desiring to be loved, and takes it upon itself to acquire it by any means necessary.

By any means necessary.. how beautiful is that, it’s simply mirroring love, in a very unconventional, almost blasphemous way.

Almost. Did I lose you? Probably. I was talking about love and now darkness found its way into the forefront. What did I mean by that? Well, naturally darkness can reveal itself as hatred, or anger—yelling at someone or thinking negatively about oneself or others, acting out with revenge,—in many different ways. Positively, it likes to party, have fun where it shouldn’t be had, dance in places that should be honored and respected. Many different ways it can manifest, but ultimately it is a vast space of nothingness that creates endlessly—filling its space with creatures of the beautiful night.

There are extremes of it just as there are of the light. Desires can be considered darkness, for they are not necessities and may be more so associated with greed. Yet that’s not true is it? Because light has its own desires, though it tends to not go beyond that point and stop when it judges itself for desiring at all.. forcing itself into a box. 🙁

It all matters where it is rooted in. Is it rooted in love or in hatred? Two sides of the same coin. Such as the light and the dark, all created by the same source—God/Goddess/Universe/Love.

It’s very obvious when darkness wants to love versus when it wants to hate. Just as it’s obvious when the light wants to love versus when it wants to hate.

Too much of the light and you’ll go blind, believing every action is correct when in fact it is neglectful; illuminating until it becomes scorching hot, burning with its holy flames until there is nothing left. Too much of darkness and you’ll be lost to the point you can no longer feel, hear, or see your soul; deafening its target until it ceases to exist—your humanity.

The dark helps the light discover what needs to be seen and illuminated. To be seen is to be heard and felt. Acknowledged and recognized for existing. It invites beauty and symmetry to that which needs to be tame/controlled. Perfect order.

As the light helps the darkness discern/discover where to travel and how to move. How to navigate their world without destroying or stepping on sacred grounds. To create freely without restriction in the knowing it will benefit the entire Universe. Perfect chaos.

Light teaches darkness how to grow beautifully in its own chaos in tandem with order, as the darkness teaches the light how to allow chaos to breathe and create in it’s space without destroying one another—to utilize it itself when it wants to create.

Darkness is chaos, and light is order.

Darkness going too far is just as irredeemable as the light going too far. They both lead to the same thing—putting out someone’s inner flame in place of their own.

Light can be confused as being the source of love itself.. leaving darkness in the dust left to constantly crave something outside of it—believing that it isn’t enough. But darkness itself was created by love, so how can it crave what it already has/is? And by this same logic, wouldn’t the light never crave love as it is love itself? The answer is simple, they need each other. The essence of Yin and Yang. As above, so below.

I just want your darkness and your light to feel safe here with me in this little corner of the internet. To explore different worlds together, random poetry, and be able to release the stress that life can bring at times. Don’t be afraid of what love can do for you.

I invite you to relinquish your control over yourself just for a moment, and allow the mysteries of love and your own inner voice to wash over your being without any judgement. To read a story/post that resonates with you and hopefully it can make you feel better about where things in life are headed, and to just make you happy, smile, laugh, and forget for a moment what troubles you.

Accept all of who you are, please. It is the most kind thing that you can do for yourself, and others.

Alas, my kindred, let us dance with the world so that it may know true love. Always respect yourself so that you may know how to respect others, and create those boundaries when necessary; when the darkness wants to take excessively and without permission rather than create in those desperate moments, utilize your light and illuminate. And when the light wants to punish and erase for the sake of victory and overzealous order, use your darkness to remind it it’s not the only variable in the equation that is love.

Remember, they both need each other.

I hope you enjoy your stay. Come back any time (for my Resident Evil 4 fans out there I’m using the traveling merchant’s voice ;p) you want to forget about the world, process it, travel mentally, and simply explore the worlds I tend to travel to in the astral state. Some stories may have meaning, some may not—birthed for the sake of bringing words to life.  Ultimately, I just want to share my gifts with the world, I don’t want to keep it to myself anymore.

Let’s be kind to each other. 🙂

I love all of you, my kindred. Both known and unknown. We exist in this world together.

Welcome to Kindred Sanctuary.